ItGoesOnWisdom

Freestyle

By Laura McCollough Moss

I started to cry on the I-190

Just before the dreaded exit

"What's the matter, Honey?" she asked,

rhetorically.

"Don't do this, Laura."

The number 6 off-ramp loomed

and threatened.

"I'm going to be fine."

Where did it come from

the strength, the calm?

Try to put yourself in her place,

Lying expectantly in your backless gown

and paper hat,

Terry gripper socks on your feet.

The pre-op IV flowing in but they tell you

they can't give you anything 'good' yet.

The waiting, waiting, waiting

"Why don't you guys go have your lunch?

I'll be fine here. There's no

reason for you to hang around."

And we left her there

glad to be spared the going-away party.

Shedding tears at the ATM,

morose over the day's special.

Eight-and-one-half hours they worked

She had plainly expressed her disapproval of

 such an aggressive procedure.

"If you can't get it all, I want you to close me up."

They forgot

or hoped against hope

or took advantage of the teaching opportunity

Whatever the reason it got ugly but they did their best.

She was a ten-day girl.

Ten days at Roswell,

Ten days at Rehab. and a little while in between before

Ten days of Hospice.

She's gone now

gone

And I'm preparing to trade the Freestyle.

Her chariot of fire.

She was there in the passenger seat,

Lamb to lion

and I didn't know it would be so hard to

let it go.

"She wouldn't keep the old thing,"

Daddy Mike consoles me and I have to laugh.

That's the point.